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I wish you best of luck.

buhbaizxz.

I'm happy , happy for you.

HAHA. YEAH , I'm going to be strong this time. well , if it god's will that I have to be patient , I will. (: I still like him and I know it , but this time I'm gonna like you differently with my heart. If I can only be your friend , I WILL BE YOUR BESTEST FRIEND. no point forcing things right? LOL. and if you have found someone you like , I guess I must be there to cheer you on and encourage you, well since I have done it once , why not twice or even thrice? hahaha. though its gonna be a rough road , well I have you guys to fall back on and still love me. THANKS GIRLS , YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW MUCH YOUR MEAN TO ME.

hope you guys will persevere in your relationships because its hard to find another half that easily. I wish you guys best of luckk. will pray for youuuuuuuuuuuuuu. (:

I give up

yes its infatuation yes its infatuation yes it infatuation but why do I miss you that much. I totally understand the meaning of being a total loser. I swear i might just be on the verge of giving up and you know what? I might just burst and regret it later but i ASSURE YOU that theres so many things I feel like telling you. why is it human nature for people to look elsewhere when the one who likes them most have always been there by their side , at least for the most times. maybe I'm not excatly that person but seeing you being so happy and sad makes me so confused if I should just give some biased opinions. you have no idea when you chat with me last night about a trival matter like the outing have made me so contented the whole night. but when we met today , I felt as if I'm the stupidest person on earth to take your words so seriously over and over again.

you = me = total loser.

countless emotions to tell you but none that speaked up.

hey , guys. no matter what , dont ever mention to anyone the existence of this blog kay? its our lil secret. hahaha. off to camp in awhile. dont miss me too much! text me if you can! AI SI NI MEN LE! (L)

you know what you want , but how long can you wait?

Did I do the right thing? or did I just messed it up? I dont know , you have no idea how I felt when I did that , when you look so happy with her I figured that I might just did the right thing. I was holding on to my tears so badly and I tried to pretend I din't care that I was long alright , long over it. But who am I kidding? cycle often repeats itself and reality just proven itself right. when you ask me if you were an evil man and why isit that you can never have a decent relationship? did you realised how bad you hit me down on my heart? why is it you never notice my existance , even after so longgg.?

I guess I'll be better offf dead.

life's a bitch.

I'M NEVER GONNA MATCHMAKE ANYONE EVER AGAIN AGAIN AGAIN AGAIN AGAIN FOR THE FRIGGIN MILLION TIME BECAUSE IN THE END ONLY I GET HURT. !@#%$$%&$%*#$^@#$&$^#t^$#y&$>&@#%^$@y&%^$v#%&#^#!^~$^?$*> WHAT HAPPEN TO VENUS LIM. WHY AM I SO STUPID , SELFISH AND FRIGGIN GREEDY. WHY WHY WHY. I MUST KNOW MY OWN LIMITS. YES YOU STUPID DONG. never will I trust myself again.

loser

Hey , S and H. I know you guys know this blog ehh. (: hehe , tag? my tagboard's dyingggggg. HAHA. so many things have happened this month yeah andd I have so many blogs & xanga & livejournal that I have not used. RARH. hahah being single is awesome , not giving anybody any chance to hurt me but I'm afraid I'm just deceiving myself. If that is so , I guess theres no point in telling myself single is awesome dont youu agree. what a bummer :(

But why does cycle always repeats itself and around my friends. f.y.i , not referingg to you-know-who but sometimes I really feel inferior to others because reality proves it all that I'm not as great as some of you guys. ahahhaha! I guess its only here you find all emotional and wordy posts abouut me. dont strain your eyes if its too long for you to read because I have no intention to let this blog be known to others. urgh.

okay bye. I'm bored.