grab a straw cause youu suck.

Things don't happen just because it feels like happening , but for a reason. welll , I'm still finding that reason and it totolly sucks. I guess this is the only one place where I could be as candid and straight forward yet I need not bother about how people feel. tsk. I guess I just got to adapt to changes be it I like it or not. urgh. I realise many of my close friends changed during this period of time and things dont go just as well too. Maybe this is my calling from god that I need a breakthrough , welll I do. (:

I wonder if all of my close friends left me , what would be left of me? though with god , I cant fulfill and be that salt and salt from the earth that he wants all his child to be. proberbly , I've changed just as much but I did not realise it. aaah , shucks. I hate this. self-confrontation/confession , totally backfires. I dont even have the mood to study noww. ):

whatever , if theres a will , theres a way! I shall strive to that quote and live my life for , now. offf to bath , ciaao!

old maid.

No point crying over split milk , its already long over. especially since he was attached two weeks ago. I guess I am the last one to know alllll of this. aaahh , stupid stupid stupid me. gaaahhhh , I know I can get over this yo and its just purely infatuation. YES , but I still need time though. damn , I'm such a sucker for relationships that I'll prolly stay single for the restttt of my life.
hahahahaaa , beat that! I'm such'cha looooooooooser I dont even try to deny. tsk.

wellll , I just congrats him and made it sound like I'm totally fine , when I'm totally not. Cause good guys are hard to find and its even harder to make him have the mutual feelings I have for him. I certainly dont want to lose him as a frienddd but I dont want to see the girl too like seriously. hahahahaah.