101 reasons

I so emo siaa! cannot tahan! well life's good so far and my troubles have just gone. Just hoping fer the better in this current situation! (: offffff to bath and get myself outta home! STUDY STUDY. :D

lifeline

I seem to dwell in the times where we could all talk freely and now , we barely even talked. who can foresee the future? I'm just deciving myself in times of need. haiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii. TGIF tmw!

heh

I wish you best of luck.

buhbaizxz.

I'm happy , happy for you.

HAHA. YEAH , I'm going to be strong this time. well , if it god's will that I have to be patient , I will. (: I still like him and I know it , but this time I'm gonna like you differently with my heart. If I can only be your friend , I WILL BE YOUR BESTEST FRIEND. no point forcing things right? LOL. and if you have found someone you like , I guess I must be there to cheer you on and encourage you, well since I have done it once , why not twice or even thrice? hahaha. though its gonna be a rough road , well I have you guys to fall back on and still love me. THANKS GIRLS , YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW MUCH YOUR MEAN TO ME.

hope you guys will persevere in your relationships because its hard to find another half that easily. I wish you guys best of luckk. will pray for youuuuuuuuuuuuuu. (:

I give up

yes its infatuation yes its infatuation yes it infatuation but why do I miss you that much. I totally understand the meaning of being a total loser. I swear i might just be on the verge of giving up and you know what? I might just burst and regret it later but i ASSURE YOU that theres so many things I feel like telling you. why is it human nature for people to look elsewhere when the one who likes them most have always been there by their side , at least for the most times. maybe I'm not excatly that person but seeing you being so happy and sad makes me so confused if I should just give some biased opinions. you have no idea when you chat with me last night about a trival matter like the outing have made me so contented the whole night. but when we met today , I felt as if I'm the stupidest person on earth to take your words so seriously over and over again.

you = me = total loser.

countless emotions to tell you but none that speaked up.

hey , guys. no matter what , dont ever mention to anyone the existence of this blog kay? its our lil secret. hahaha. off to camp in awhile. dont miss me too much! text me if you can! AI SI NI MEN LE! (L)

you know what you want , but how long can you wait?

Did I do the right thing? or did I just messed it up? I dont know , you have no idea how I felt when I did that , when you look so happy with her I figured that I might just did the right thing. I was holding on to my tears so badly and I tried to pretend I din't care that I was long alright , long over it. But who am I kidding? cycle often repeats itself and reality just proven itself right. when you ask me if you were an evil man and why isit that you can never have a decent relationship? did you realised how bad you hit me down on my heart? why is it you never notice my existance , even after so longgg.?

I guess I'll be better offf dead.

life's a bitch.

I'M NEVER GONNA MATCHMAKE ANYONE EVER AGAIN AGAIN AGAIN AGAIN AGAIN FOR THE FRIGGIN MILLION TIME BECAUSE IN THE END ONLY I GET HURT. !@#%$$%&$%*#$^@#$&$^#t^$#y&$>&@#%^$@y&%^$v#%&#^#!^~$^?$*> WHAT HAPPEN TO VENUS LIM. WHY AM I SO STUPID , SELFISH AND FRIGGIN GREEDY. WHY WHY WHY. I MUST KNOW MY OWN LIMITS. YES YOU STUPID DONG. never will I trust myself again.

loser

Hey , S and H. I know you guys know this blog ehh. (: hehe , tag? my tagboard's dyingggggg. HAHA. so many things have happened this month yeah andd I have so many blogs & xanga & livejournal that I have not used. RARH. hahah being single is awesome , not giving anybody any chance to hurt me but I'm afraid I'm just deceiving myself. If that is so , I guess theres no point in telling myself single is awesome dont youu agree. what a bummer :(

But why does cycle always repeats itself and around my friends. f.y.i , not referingg to you-know-who but sometimes I really feel inferior to others because reality proves it all that I'm not as great as some of you guys. ahahhaha! I guess its only here you find all emotional and wordy posts abouut me. dont strain your eyes if its too long for you to read because I have no intention to let this blog be known to others. urgh.

okay bye. I'm bored.

grab a straw cause youu suck.

Things don't happen just because it feels like happening , but for a reason. welll , I'm still finding that reason and it totolly sucks. I guess this is the only one place where I could be as candid and straight forward yet I need not bother about how people feel. tsk. I guess I just got to adapt to changes be it I like it or not. urgh. I realise many of my close friends changed during this period of time and things dont go just as well too. Maybe this is my calling from god that I need a breakthrough , welll I do. (:

I wonder if all of my close friends left me , what would be left of me? though with god , I cant fulfill and be that salt and salt from the earth that he wants all his child to be. proberbly , I've changed just as much but I did not realise it. aaah , shucks. I hate this. self-confrontation/confession , totally backfires. I dont even have the mood to study noww. ):

whatever , if theres a will , theres a way! I shall strive to that quote and live my life for , now. offf to bath , ciaao!

old maid.

No point crying over split milk , its already long over. especially since he was attached two weeks ago. I guess I am the last one to know alllll of this. aaahh , stupid stupid stupid me. gaaahhhh , I know I can get over this yo and its just purely infatuation. YES , but I still need time though. damn , I'm such a sucker for relationships that I'll prolly stay single for the restttt of my life.
hahahahaaa , beat that! I'm such'cha looooooooooser I dont even try to deny. tsk.

wellll , I just congrats him and made it sound like I'm totally fine , when I'm totally not. Cause good guys are hard to find and its even harder to make him have the mutual feelings I have for him. I certainly dont want to lose him as a frienddd but I dont want to see the girl too like seriously. hahahahaah.